settle down


still that word

by 27 i would have to be married they said

by 24 i would have to have a one-year-job-experience they said

i can't quit things they said

i shouldnt sing and upload on internet they said

i should change to be more gentle, more girly they think

i should ‘try' on people i dont have feelings they think, to do what? break their hearts? confusing their lives?

i also shouldn't express my feelings then right?

i know everyone just wants good things to happen to me that's why they expect so much but


expectations suck

and i know i suck too

i'm lost

i have no answers for anyone's questions.


and then i'm happy again, i'm mindless again,

i put on make up & live for myself again..

what a loop what a loop


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